Misunderstood

When people think about me, they think about me in a very limited way; they think about me with their very limited minds, with the selfishness of their flesh and within the space of time as they know it. They think about me but with limitation of their existence.

I am the reason there’s a world, I am the reason there’s hope, I am the reason there’s peace, I am the reason there’s life. I am the only reason the world didn’t end from the beginning.

I have been at the centre of everything, I intervened when your mother Eve got tempted and your father Adam messed up. I prevailed when your brother Abel cried out after he was killed by his kin – the plant groomer/farmer. Samson groaned for strength. I understood that, though he messed up, he needed to finish his in-laws – those Philistines. I was there and I gave Him his strength. Yes, Delilah’s people had it coming for them.

David your cousin fell several times, but he understood me – that’s rare, and he reaped the benefits. It was refreshing to have someone understand me – it’s endearing to know he deliberately sought to understand me. This is why, though he stumbled in the beginning, he slew giants and broke records.

What actions were borne out of me is basically because I exist. I have been in existence before time itself, I have the advantage of hindsight and foresight. Enuch and I had something real going on, Elijah understood me and knew how to appeal to me. Those strategic Hebrew boys, your cousins – they understood my essence and look how beautifully they turned out.

I am selfless. I am the feather, I am the whip, I am the prosecutor, I am the defender, I am time. The world exists because I do, I am often…Misunderstood! 

You deserve something timeless, true, limitless, selfless, real…you deserve Me!

I am love, I am God, I think about you every time and I want you to carry this consciousness everywhere you go.

My beloved friends, let us continue to love each other since love comes from God. Everyone who loves is born of God and experiences a relationship with God. The person who refuses to love doesn’t know the first thing about God, because God is love—so you can’t know him if you don’t love. This is how God showed his love for us: God sent his only Son into the world so we might live through him. This is the kind of love we are talking about—not that we once upon a time loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to clear away our sins and the damage they’ve done to our relationship with God.

My dear, dear friends, if God loved us like this, we certainly ought to love each other. No one has seen God, ever. But if we love one another, God dwells deeply within us, and his love becomes complete in us—perfect love! – 1John 4:7-11

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Dear Love,

What comes to your mind when the word “love” is mentioned?

Is it, Rainbows? World peace? Perhaps it’s Someone? I don’t know what it is but I am pretty sure something comes to your mind – you can’t possibly draw up blanks when it comes to love.

I stumbled on a love letter I wrote on my blog some years back (2013) and I realised that I still feel as strongly towards God as I did back then…I can comfortably say that I am still in love with God:

Dear Love,

I was going to be all artistic and start with the colour of the rainbow reflecting the different shades that could come out of the sun or the rains with its different intensity expression the depth and strength of your love, I was even thinking as far as the countries with exciting weather change (Summer, Spring, Autumn or even Winter) describing the various degrees of your love…was thinking so much, how I can express my love for you- sounding like those really poetic people, or great artists or even musicians. I realised they must have experienced you in different ways and expressed their love in a way unique to them yet acceptable to all; so this is me, in my basic imagination, telling you how much I love you.

I really don’t know how other people wake up, but I love how you wake me up, there are days when I wake up in an instant (like a jolt of black coffee), there are other times I wake up or more like I ease into waking up- like savoring the aroma of a cooking meal), in all there’s that uniqueness that warms my heart. I love you for being there for me even before I ever imagined that I needed you, and just like Eric McDaniel, J. Hairston and Minon Bolton, I am saying- I AM GRATEFUL.

I have often wondered how I can accurately describe how much I know you love me, I end up with a headache’s shadow, so I am content with loving you and knowing how to express it. Expressing my love for you and gratitude is like singing unsung melodies, better pouring out my heart by speaking in tongues, you definitely understand. I was alright with life…you loved, I was broken hearted…you still loved, I was ill and going crazy…you still loved me- desperately, I neglected you, did things I am not entirely proud of- you did not love me less, I was feeling high and Pharisee-like….you still loved me.

I may not have the best of words or the most touching lyrics, or the best artwork expressing how much I love you, I have come to realize that you would accept the love, not because you are desperate, but you love me so much that my feeble attempts in showing how much I love you touches you. Here I am cap-in-hand, saying I love you beyond my imagination can let me for now, I love for every time I err you correct me in your way (in the way that works at the time), I love that you love me too much to give me too much. I love you and I intend to be more expressive. I am desperately in love with you Lord that I am going to attempt to be artistic in my words, but words could be cheap.

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I am going to work at being more expressive; here is my attempt: My love for you is like the sunset over the seas, it’s not orange, it’s not purple, it could be described but I am going to attempt to be artistic in my words, but words could be cheap, I am going to work at being more expressive; here is my attempt: My love for you is like the sunset over the seas, it’s not orange, it’s not purple, it could be described but better-experienced…as beautiful as that is, it comes to naught compared to your love for me. I was taught to look before I leap, but with you I will leap and still not look, my love for you enables me to trust you absolutely, even when it’s against the norm There are times when my love for you brings butterflies to my belly, other times it brings clarity, I love that I am not helpless, love that you let me fall in love with you and not force me to love you even though its within your capacity.

I was taught to look before I leap, but with You I will leap and still not look, my love for you enables me to trust you absolutely, even when it’s against the norm There are times when my love for you brings butterflies to my belly, other times it brings clarity, I love that I am not helpless, love that you let me fall in love with You and not force me to love you even though it’s within your capacity. Concluding this entry, I have come to realise that I cannot express my love for you without talking about your love for me, the truth is; you first love me. I wish I had an artist who can paint what I feel inside, I wish I had a camera that can capture how much I love you, I wish I had a lyricist to describe how much I love you and how much I want to love you, Lord.

The truth is; you know how much I love you because you are all those things I wished I had to express my true feelings; now I am content, knowing that even more than I have admitted to myself, you know my true feelings…that’s one more thing I love about you. With you, I am not in love with the idea of being in love; I know that I am in love with you.

Yours Sincerely

Taemytayo (the one who loves you).

I have tried to express my love for God but I keep running in circles, take a break from your busy or laid back schedule and express your love for your creator; it helps put things in perspective.

Here’s the love letter I wrote to God, “I love you ” could be mere words, what other ways can you use to express your love for and to God?

Remember: He first loved you!

Jesus in Jeans – A must read!

When i got to uni my dad gave me three advice that helped me through school:
1- Read and study well so that when you’re told results are out you don’t go to the toilet out of fear of the outcome.
2- walk with those who study, they help a lot when it’s time to study and you’re not in the mood
3- join a fellowship, “runs girls” and “yahoo boys” will not be attracted to you and derail you
Guess what? It worked
At different stages in my life God had always used someone or group or people to make me grow in HIM. 
When i needed to grow amidst peer pressure, Sovereign Army Fellowship and Levites helped me with them- Bless everyone who helped me grow.
After school, when i needed encouragement- dealing with disappointments, when i needed to stop drinking milk and start taking something more solid in Christ, God brought Growing In Purpose (GRIP) group my way- when he was satisfied that i had grown some, the BBM group dissolved. I tried to have us back on Whats App but even that didn’t work- i got the gist, i needed to move on, i stopped grasping at straws.
Ofcourse i made friends with members of the different groups. A friend of mine from GRIP wrote me up and told me he just finished writing a book and wants me to read it and give him feedback on what i thought about the book, i eagerly took the book and read, Wow!!!! i was blown away. 
The Title of this oh-so-real book is: Jesus In Jeans
Let’s take a little journey back to when i joined Sovereign Army Fellowship (SAF) in 2006 (i must say that was one of my best decisions when i was in UNILAG), through different pastors i learnt and grew as a christian, from Pastor Trevor to Pastor Lala and everyone in between. One thing i learnt in Sovereign Army Fellowship was evangelism, we would go to the different hostels to evangelise, what we tagged our evangelising was: Jesus In Jeans!
You could imagine my surprise when the book had the same title. So this whole so lovely book is available for sale and i must say IT IS A MUST READ.
Imagine Jesus in this present day and age, how do you think it will be? This book gives you an insight to our Jesus who is the same yesterday, today and forever.
The book written by Bill Bidiaque helped me understand some of the things that happened when Jesus was on earth as a man, all i could conclude was flesh and blood didn’t reveal this to the young writer Bill. 
Please see excerpts from this great book!
 #‎JesusInJeansNovel #‎IstillLOVEyou
Lagos, NIGERIA; Sept. 1— Documentary filmmaker and writer Bill Bidiaque, debuts his Christian fiction/Christian thriller novel, Jesus in Jeans, based on the life of Jesus, cast in the 21st Century. Jesus in Jeans is published as a WestBow Press title; WestBow Press is a division of Thomas Nelson Publishing and Zondervan.
Set in a fictional nation called Y’Isra – based on the Israel of old – the novel narrates the days of Jesus on earth in a contemporary context. We meet Jesus as Jay Elion. Our first encounter with him is at the sanctum, wreaking havoc on bureaux de change and electronic dealerships.
Jay Elion claims he’s been sent to save Earth from damnation, his mission beginning in Y’Isra. This pits him against the Syndicate of Religious Lawyers, the Moranê Empire, and the Y’Isran patriarchy – who all have their own interests to guard.
To fulfil his mission, Jay organizes campaigns across Y’Isra with his twelve-man crew and his growing popularity threatens the fabric of power that the three antagonists have woven. His exploits attract several assassination attempts but Jay scales through them in stride.
We journey with Jay, getting a modern perspective of the life Jesus lived; like 2,000 years ago, Jay speaks to the elements and they obey, whether he’s on a Boeing 787 Dreamliner or a sport fisher yacht.
The book is available on Amazon, WestBow, and Konga, in Hardcover, Paperback, and e-copies.
Bill Bidiaque believes that the media is an effective tool for mind-change and is poised to exploit the vast opportunities for this purpose. He’s a screen writer and a documentary filmmaker, and lives in Lagos, Nigeria with his wife.
Bill is available for interviews. To book interviews, appearances and/or book-signings, please contact holla@billbidiaque.com.
Bill BidiaqueIdeomania LTD/ Elvisionbillbidiaque.com+234-802-450-3534
Author – Jesus in Jeans (The Novel)Available on Amazon, Konga and Westbow