Life Goals

It’s Wednesday the 26th – the last Wednesday in the month of July 2017! It’s been an interesting month for me, a month of discovery, a month of trust, a month of hunger and a month of obedience. I had reasons to evaluate my life and pause to check my relationship-o-metre with God, just to be sure I am not getting mixed signals (like one will check their tyres from time to time). Yinka Akande, the lovely person behind the Instagram Ipray365 is my writer for today, she’s brought to the fore the importance of a relationship with God, reading her post had me re-evaluate my life’s goal- as Christians, we need to be conscious of having one desire- to be a vessel unto honour.

I pray this piece blesses and changes you as it did me.

Growing up as a child, I knew very little about God and his ways. Even though I grew up going to church often and religiously attending departmental meetings, I knew God existed and that I was to live for Him, but I just couldn’t wrap my head around the whole God idea.

Although I am still on that journey, I will like to say that with each season, God has graciously revealed himself to me.

In my university days, I longed to be useful to God, Permit me to say that was my single heart desire. Even though I loved God and wanted to be used by him, I had some limitations in my mind and in my thinking which restricted my ability to operate in my full potential as a vessel unto honour. 

As the years went by, I learnt and discovered the endless value of a life lived unashamedly for God in the midst of a generation that cared little or less about God and didn’t think it cool to be identified with Him.

As days turned to weeks and weeks to months and years, I realised that my single life purpose was to be a vessel unto God – the honourable vessel. I desired this, and urge everyone to see that as the single reason why we live.

I continued with my commitment to live for God, even though some of my colleagues called me different kinds of names, that didn’t change the fact that God honoured me in the organisation.  In just my first year of working with the company, I was awarded the employee of the year. The light and glory of God caused me to stand out.  Some of my colleagues looked up to the wisdom of God in me and they sought me for spiritual guidance.

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God used me as a vessel of honour to bring honour and glory to His name.

This journey continues as I am continually learning about God and inspiring others to do so too. Through my prayer book “Ipray” and my Instagram page- @ipray365, I aim to inspire a 100 million praying lives and also encourage people to live their lives in close relationship, fellowship, communion with God – most importantly, being salts and light bearers in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation.

 

Direction

We have the Local Government election holding tomorrow in Lagos Nigeria and most of us will be grounded for the better part of the day- this post is quite appropriate for a time like this. My #VesselUntoHonour writer this Friday is a young woman passionate about God, she makes you long to have a loving relationship with your Father, and she is doing her own thing in the NGO scene. Chinenye Etoniru expresses how you should at all times seek God for direction, my a-ha moment was this line:

It is wisdom to pray before you set out, it is faith in action to step out and take hold of what you were praying for.

I pray you are blessed by this as I was: 

I studied Law at the university for 6 years. Sometime in my 4th year, I started asking the lord what career he wanted me to pursue. To some people it was like – duhh you are studying law what do you want to do with your life again. To some others it was more like- ahn ahn just look at what you can do and what you are passionate about and tow that line. But I still asked the lord what he would have me do? His answer blew my mind; non-profit sector ke? I didn’t even know there were professionals in that field, with all my years of studying law, I’ll now go and work in an NGO.I am sure glad I listened. Three years down the line, I’m like a fish in the ocean, like I was born for the work that I do. I am fulfilled, I’ve excelled in my career and there are still lots of opportunities within the sector that haven’t been explored.

I’m telling the story because as Christians a lot of times we feel like we have to figure things out for ourselves. We set goals(without asking the lord which way) then at the end of the day it doesn’t work out, we repeat the cycle and then we become frustrated when we feel like we aren’t making progress. Our walk on earth was never meant to be about the hustle and bustle, we are called to know Jesus and walk with him. It is from the place of a relationship with God that he directs the trajectory of our lives. You can never get it wrong, moving with Jesus.

I’ve heard people say Christians are lazy and wait for God to do everything for us. I’ll share another experience. I started working in the non-profit sector without doing any course, so most of the experience I have was gotten on the job. As I was thinking about the things I wanted to accomplish this year, I knew I wanted to do a course. I’m married with a child and most of the courses I know I can do are 1-2 year courses away from Nigeria. I didn’t think I could do it. I prayed about it and just generally asked God to guide me. I went to see my dad some weeks after and immediately I settled down the first thing he told me was you need to do a course. That was a confirmation for me that God was in support. I went home and said “Lord I don’t know which course you want me to do but please lead me to it and let me know when I see it”. To cut the long story short, about two months after, an application for a course was circulated in my office. It was a 2 week training and 6 month mentoring programme. When I saw it I knew that this was it. I wasn’t going to be away for too long and the course focused on most of things I needed to learn. I didn’t meet some of the selection criteria and the application process was stressful but that didn’t stop me. In the end, I was one of three people selected from Nigeria.

This experience re-enforced a biblical truth I hold dear. Enquire of the lord, and when he says move, you MOVE. Laziness is when you pray and when it’s time to move you are laid back. It is wisdom to pray before you set out, it is faith in action to step out and take hold of what you were praying for. (James 2: 14 -26)

My message here is, stop striving to do things on your own. Move with God and let him order the course of your life, professionally and other wise. Moses told God in Exodus 33:15 “If you don’t personally go with us, don’t make us leave this place”. David when he found that the Amalekites had taken the wives and children of he and his men captive, went to the lord and asked shall I pursue and overtake (I Samuel 30). The answer here looked very obvious. How will you get them back if you don’t pursue? In present day, people will have said he’s not sharp guy, just go already! But he still asked and God‘s answer was affirmative. These men understood that once God gives a go ahead victory is sure.

Jeremiah 29:11- God knows the great plans he has for you. The only way you can find out the plans, is to ask!

 

Faith not magic!

Teachers! What would the world be like without them? I’m glad what we can do is just imagine, I learnt a couple of things from my teachers, and a whole lot more from my Christian teachers, more from their way of life than the subjects they taught. Today’s #VesselUntoHonour is a teacher who is passionate about God and sees reflects on her teachings and uses the experience to understand the scripture. I call her Dash! Her official documents says Deinma though. What I learnt from her is the understanding of the power of timing in Prayer, Faith and Trust…the walk with God is not magic, it’s like a seed and it needs time to germinate. I pray it blesses you as it did me:

Tolu: *whining* Look Miss Deinma my water is not turning to He stretched out his hand to show me his cup of water.

We had just finished a science project titled: ‘states of water’ and this 5yr old scientist (Tolu) wanted to start experimenting immediatelyYou see, Tolu had seen steam gush out from a kettle of boiling water (liquid turning to gas); he explored ice cubes melting outside the freezer (solid turning to liquid), he had also examined a bottle of water that had an “iceberg” floating in it (i.e. liquid turning to solid) – we agreed that it was part of the free-flowing water that had solidified thus forming ice. In all these, we also discussed freezing point and boiling point – at that time that these changes occur; he didn’t understand the concept of timing.

Personally, I think ‘timing’ is a relative thing; especially with situational changes surrounding every experiential “experiment”. It’s like hearing a testimony, believing in it and agreeing with the written word of God but not being sure of how to replicate those exact Spiritual conditions. How do you even start to talk about “timing” in an eternal realm?

As I grinned at Tolu’s faith, I told him “you need to give it TIME”, he explained to me saying “but Miss Deinma it is really really cold already – it should turn to ice”. Really really cold and freezing point are totally different things – not close in any way. Could I really explain more than this to a 5-year-old? Maybe if I had a thermometer, I could show him the difference between 7°C, 0°C and -4°C. Since the technicalities were going to be somewhat a lot for him, I whispered to him “Trust me! Leave it in the freezer overnight and the next morning, you’ll find ice”. With an intense glare in front of me and with his head slowly nodding, he spelt the word N-O, and continued by shouting – I want it now! What I deduced from his body and verbal language were conflicting messages addressing different things but merged into one answer. The slow nod: I trust you Miss Deinma; No, I want it now: I don’t like your timing thus I wouldn’t follow your instructions on how to go about it.

As a Christian scientist, I remember asking my Pastor about Faith-o-metres. I knew that beyond any reasonable doubt, I believed in the word – countless stars rating faith! Thus, I expected all my expectations offered in form of prayers to materialise immediately. I guess I only saw my desire as the only necessary condition.

If I had liquid nitrogen, I would have created the magic Tolu was requesting for, but magic is such an unsustainable reality and the knowledge needed to manage it sometimes elude even the wisest scholars. So instead of dabbling into that and preparing for a future of re-orientations, I believe I stand justified to allow him to grow a little bit more to understand timing and right conditions. Although I must say I highly commend his relational skills and all the questions he brought to the table.

My conversation with Tolu brought to the fore, that as Christians, we are privy to the right conditions and timings through the power of the Holy Ghost and the special Grace of God. We are also encouraged by Hebrews 6:12 to follow those who through faith and PATIENCE obtained the promise.

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Time must take its course and the onus is on us not to miss our time of visitation, as a Christian I believe that’s a kingdom secret. Jesus wasn’t just born and then He died, It took Him 33 years to prepare to die for your sins, the beauty of timing and waiting is beauty and permanence of the end result.

 

As vessels (remember clays when moulded have to dry and to last have to be heated and all this takes time), we work by faith and not magic…time is essential.

Absolute Obedience

It’s Friday and I am excited for another ‘episode’ of #VesselUntoHonour. I have this owanbe coming up and I’m thinking to myself, hope the food will be dope! Today’s writer is someone I have admired from afar, I watch with admiration how she does her business, how she cooks quality meals with prices that will make your eye twitch (very pocket-friendly). She doesn’t compromise on quality and I see Jesus shine through her transparency, what I didn’t know was her story and how obedience to the master potter shaped her business – Veritas Caterers Limited; meet the CEO- Veronica and read her #VesselUntoHonour story and I pray it blesses you as it blessed me.

 I am a Geophysicist and topped my class while in school, I didn’t want to do my mother’s business (cooking) because I felt it was too dirty and wasn’t classy enough. I married early, had two babies after school then went off for my NYSC. All these while I cooked for fun, if you are hungry, match to my house I’d cook for you. My mum taught me to always look inward, always build a recipe from what you have before looking for money to get new things and that made me learn early that cooking is an art and art is a means of self-expression.

I have been in private business for 17 years and Veritas is one of the several businesses I have ve (Veritas is a Latin word for truth) Veritas is my truth. God had been using strangers, friends, my husband to talk to me, to turn my passion into profit- I was headstrong, I would say “No, I am a geophysicist. I can’t cook for other people.” Then God started using other means to talk to me, He called me out and showed me- this (cooking) is what I want you to do, it got so frustrating to the extent that every other thing I did or planned to do paled compared to cooking. He showed me, that cooking is what you should do, strangers will come to you- feed them. Why me? I was told, no- you were singled out for a purpose, out of your mother’s children- I was the arrowhead in cooking, God told me, this is who you are, this is what you should do.

Out of frustration, I started a plantain chips company from my kitchen in 2005, I told God that I have done something in line with what you asked me- this sustained me for 10years and the vision came again. God told me, you are running, this isn’t what I asked you to do…at this point, I had to obey. God said, cook food and feed people not make snacks.

I challenged God, told him I wouldn’t collect money from my husband, I would cook with what I have, where I am- you are God, You should sort me out. A program came up in my church where the church was sourcing for a vendor to cater for about 100 ministers for 8 days and out of nowhere I took that up and said I will handle it, the devil came and planted seeds of doubt (you don’t have waiters, you don’t have plates or cutleries to cater for that much people), I did everything in my house, served from my house, and at the end I wondered, “how did I do that with the limitations the devil had planted”. The HolySpirit responded: when I give you a vision, I always cater for my vision- hence it’s called PROvision, this is what you are called to do and this is where you are going to shine. I realised that my altar, my pulpit, my mission field is my cooking and that’s the way I will be representing God.

September I started in my house, no customer-base, nothing, sold only one pack and by October 1, 2015, I rolled out the Veritas express with just the contact on my Blackberry as my contact. Today we have the capacity to cater for events and lots of people with no loan from the bank, no capital from my husband and no input from my savings.

Whenever things go south (they do sometimes), I realise that it’s like God (drying of the brook so that the prophet could relocate- 1Kings 17: 7), I see it as a launch pad for something great. There are setbacks definitely but God still makes a way.

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God has been faithful and He is the pillar of our business, all we have done is putting the face of God first God in all we do. Obedience is better than sacrifice, and ii strive to obey God at all times, how?

God says we should:

  • Be Truthful: We ensure that all pack of food is truthful and full of integrity as God would
  • Be Resourceful
  • Let His glory and His name shine in all that we do.

Treat food that strangers will eat like something you will prepare for yourself. People trust you to deliver their health so allow the HolySpirit to use you to deliver to that trust.

As Christian business owners, don’t be carried away by the way of the world…making money is important but making a good name, uplifting people is more important. Let people see that you present God in all that you do, let there be a difference, treat your staff with respect, let them see God in you.

Your business is your mission field. Ensure no one is looking for God in your business, let it be glaring with the way you do your business. Don’t forget, always obey God’s instruction, even when it seems impossible.

Saved to Serve

Let me introduce you to Tosin Yemi-Sanni nee Oke, she’s a full-time God lover and a part-time banker. Tosin believes that as Christians you should be the spitting image of God and living with that consciousness with the help of the HolySpirit should guide your actions.

Here’s her #VesselUntoHonour story, I pray it blesses you as it did me:

One morning in August 2013, I sat with a heavy heart in the backseat of a cab on my way to work. The burden in my heart was so heavy that I started to cry. I cried uncontrollably as I seemed to be unable to point out the cause of my feelings. After a while, the HolySpirit took over and I began to pray in tongues. As I prayed in tongues, God began to speak to my heart. He told me He had saved me so that I could serve Him. He had gone the extra mile and reached deep down into the pit of life where I was and had brought me out so that I could share the tales of His goodness and amazing grace with others. In that moment, I dedicated my life and my all to Jesus afresh. It was only after this encounter that my burden lifted.

Whatever we do, and in whatever profession we find ourselves, we must always remember that we’re saved to serve. We didn’t choose Him, He chose us to be vessels unto honour written by Billy Graham or watch a message by Kenneth Hagin. For them, we are the Christ. I have realised that there are people in our spheres of influence that will never read a book w they know and see. God has placed us in specific organisations and environments so that people can know the love and grace of Jesus through us. He calls us to be vessels, set apart for His use. The great thing about being a vessel is that you get to be filled first, you get to be a first partaker of His goodness, love and grace and then you begin to pour out all you have been filled with.

As a professional, this means that my office is my pulpit. This for me, is not just about telling the cleaner who labours much to send her kids to school about the love of Christ; it’s not in showing that I’m the most spiritual person and that I can quote Bible verses; it is also about extending to her, the love and grace that Christ has shown me. It is in the way we give, smile, care and listens. This is what draws them to the God we claim to serve!

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I have certainly been tempted many times to react in ways contrary to how a “vessel of honour” would. Right before I began my career, I thought I was one of the most patient and forgiving persons on earth. I soon realised that my patience hadn’t really been tested before I started working. I used to tease my colleagues that they brought out the aggressive lady in me. I however soon learnt that as God’s leading lady, I needed to pursue peace and have a gentle and quiet spirit. I still face situations in which I must decide whether to snap, roll my eyes and hiss or simply smile and hold my peace. Thank God for the Holy Spirit that reminds me of who I am in Him! I’m born of God; a spitting image of my Father! I’m a vessel, fit for honourable uses and this is who God helps me to be daily!

 I pray that God helps us to truly be vessels that are useful for honourable and noble purposes and that our lives are truly a reflection of the Master’s love!

All or Nothing

With the weekend around the corner, I felt this is the perfect time for this Entrepreneur to talk about her being a #VesselUntoHonour. Her name is Oluwakemi Samuel– in her words, she’s the creative director of Icing ‘n’ Drapes, she bakes cakes and is into event decor. Reading what she wrote, taught me a lot about being a Christian, an Entrepreneur…it taught me to let go and let God. I hope it blesses you as it did me.

People wonder why I refer to myself as Creative Director of my business and not CEO; well that’s because that is who I am- A Director! Jesus is my CEO. Sounds funny right? Well, I’ve chosen to give him his space, if He the Chief Executive Officer of my life why not every area of my life… my business inclusive.

A lot of people have different opinions about God, a school of thought believe that whatever you can do by yourself do it and do not involve God, another school of thought (which I belong) believe that even in little areas of your life you must get God involved…I involve God in everything no matter how little it is. I pray when I get to the office in the morning; apart from praying for open doors:

•  I sanctify the place with the blood of Jesus,

•  I pray against accidents,

•    I pray for every job/order received,

•    I pray for my customers to have money, pray for God’s provision for them especially those who have shown interest and not paid

•    Before I start any cake, I pray for ideas,

•    When I finish I pray because you even have to pray that the cake gets to the destination in one piece and I pray that the client will love the cake/décor…I pray for virtually everything.

Even when I’m on the job, you could catch me say “HolySpirit” at intervals, I realised that calling the HolySpirit in is like a prayer and He has never failed to provide the right answer to all situations. Sometimes when a job goes wrong, I say maybe because I forgot to pray or didn’t listen to a particular leading from the Holy Spirit. Here’s a snapshot of my daily office prayer:

IMG_20170702_214227Putting God first in my business is not just about praying but also treating my employees and customers right according to God’s principles. As a Christian, I don’t want to behave in a way that will have people turn and say “And she says she is a Christian.” I have over time learnt to seek God’s wisdom to keep me from making bad decisions and to also trust God for uncertain profits.

I believe firmly that following God’s directions will bring success (Remember what happened when Peter let Jesus in his boat?)

God cares about honesty in the workplace; your business is his business. Proverbs 16:11 MSG

cakeIt’s only God that move one forward from the level of “barely-making-it to “having-more-than-enough.  He is the only one that can open doors in a supernatural way.  He can position one’s name with the right people, in the right places and at the right time. So why leave Him out?

In all this,  as Christians, we should be Christ-like in our ways and exhibit Christ-like traits like – honesty, quality service (whatever you find your hands doing, do it well), the right attitude, perspective (give everyone a chance), uniqueness, creativity, professionalism and integrity.

Never mind those who tell you to leave God out of your business, your business is your life and your life is God’s business.

Step Away from the Closet

My first writer is Oluyinka Sado nee Awobiyi. Yinka is an MBA student in Foster School of Business, Seatle Washington, she’s currently interning with Amazon and she’s carrying the light of Jesus everywhere she goes. Here’s what she has to say about being a #VesselUntoHonour in her field, both as a student and a professional. I hope it inspires you as it did me.

I want to start with saying thank you to Taemytayo for the opportunity to write about my journey as a Christian in the workplace; I’m proud of the woman you have become, with a deep love for God and a passion by which you share that love with the world.

Now to the topic, being a vessel of honour, I can only ever claim to be one because it has been bestowed upon me. Not because I have always made the right choices, or always walked the straight and narrow way, but because he said of me, I have made you righteous because you have accepted the salvation I offered.

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That’s the foundation of who I am and is how I like to start every introduction of myself to people in my professional life. No, I don’t quote 2nd Cor to them…that would be weird, lol; but I find a way to mention it early that I am Christian one way or the other. A perfect example of how I do that was in September 2016, the first week of my MBA program, we were asked to bring an artefact to the class that can be said to represent our core values. People brought all sorts, frankly, I was shocked by some of the things. One guy brought his mountain climbing shoes, saying “they are sturdy, rugged and have been through some really tough terrains. They remind me of my life’s story and represent who I am”; another brought a bowl of Jambalaya (a meal that looks like tuwo*), for her, this is her favourite family meal and her family defines who she is. You can be sure I brought my Bible, explaining that I am a born again Christian and this book is the instruction manual by which I live my life. That was that I had announced myself as a follower of Christ and the pressure is on to live up to that announcement.

More recently, I resumed as an MBA intern at Amazon in Seattle Washington. When asked what I do on weekends by my new colleagues, I was sure to mention Sunday mornings are for church, a subtle but clear message- I am a Christian! This may seem really silly, but it is important to say who you are especially when you live in one of the most unchurched states in the United States. And guess what, when you say you are a Christian here, people begin to associate you with some very un-Christ-like stereotypes. Christians here are believed to be intolerant, judgmental, homophobes, anti-abortion/pro-women suppression, and so many things that would surprise you as a real Christian. I have met Christians here who tell me they feel like they need to hide their identity from their colleagues because they don’t want people to associate them with those things. However, I tell my fellow Christians that even though Christians look bad here, we should not be in the closet about our Christianity, to the contrary, we should show them what real Christianity is.

Yes, I am anti-homosexuality, I believe it is a sin, but that does not make me a homophobe. I am also pro-life (i love babies and believe God has a plan for every life conceived by a woman), but I also believe women should be empowered to make their own choices; even our Father in heaven gave us free will immediately after he created us. I have standards, but I have compassion and love for people of all races, colour and creed. Yes, I am a Christian but slay at my job, I’m fun to hang out with, I try to exercise, and also to have a well-balanced life. I want the same things normal people want in life and yes, I’m working on it every day.

Finally, I will like to say success is the biggest bait for the gospel. As the old saying goes success has many friends. When you are good at what you do and make great strides in your career by God’s grace, people want to know how you did it.  This is your chance to let them know you had some help from above. Tell them about the Holy Spirit promised to everyone who believes in Jesus, give examples of how He has practically helped you and give them a chance to try it out for themselves.

This is how I represent Christ in my professional life, I hope you can too.

Tuwo*: it is a type of Nigerian cuisine from the northern part of Nigeria. It is a thick pudding prepared from rice flour and is usually served with different types of soups

 

Vessels Unto Honour

There’s this prayer I pray, the HolySpirit inspired that prayer in me, it’s:

Lord, let my life be an advertisement for you, let me be a billboard for you.

I read somewhere that if you have to convince people that you are a Christian then you are doing something wrong, remember that the name “Christian” came from observations – they observed that the Apostle’s behaviour was mirrored after Christ.

The question I am asking today is: Is your life an advertisement for Christ?

As a professional, is Jesus evident in your life? Is it visible that you put God first in everything you do? Or do you put him on the back burner when it comes to your career? Or are you a Christian living for judgement day only, living each day as they come, and waiting for the rapture to happen? Either way, it’s important to always put God first in all you do while you make waves for good while here on earth….guess what, the whole world is waiting for your manifestation

For [even the whole] creation [all nature] waits eagerly for the children of God to be revealed.- Romans 8:19

Clays have always fascinated me, it is interesting how different creations a potter can create with just clay…fascinating sculptures, plates and even vessels, each with their variations. God is the ultimate potter, and He took time creating different people with the same clay. You were not moulded and given life for you to do nothing, you were moulded to be a vessel…a Vessel Unto Honour.

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In May I was at a concert and the HolySpirit dropped the word: “Vessels Unto Honour”, that was my next assignment, which was to gather unashamed Christian professionals from different works of life, to write about their lives and how God is very involved in their lives. I didn’t know where to start, with the help of the HolySpirit I compiled a list.

Every Wednesday and Friday starting from the month of July, I will be posting write-ups from professionals from different works of life, expressing themselves as #VesselsUntoHonour, please follow me on this journey as they write about how involved God is in their lives. These professionals are doing well in their field and they are unashamed of Christ. This dispels the myth that to be successful in this world you have to put Christ on the back burner.

As a professional, how do I bring Jesus to my job? While pastors preach on the pulpit and talk about God and his faithfulness, I realised that my pulpit is my life, my office and my professional space is my mission field. I don’t need to wear “Jesus Girl” T-shirt before I get people’s attention, my character should shout God’s fame. The way I respond to emails, the way I relate to my colleagues, the decisions I make when no one is around is very important should shout Christ-like. Some of my colleagues will not step into a church to hear my pastor preach about God’s faithfulness and His love, but they should come in contact with the salvation message through my life, what version will I be if I am read? Will I be the rejected translation or the Christ-like translation? These are the thoughts that are constantly running through my head.

I pray their stories blesses you as they have been blessing me.

Happy New Half of the year *winks*

Dear Love,

What comes to your mind when the word “love” is mentioned?

Is it, Rainbows? World peace? Perhaps it’s Someone? I don’t know what it is but I am pretty sure something comes to your mind – you can’t possibly draw up blanks when it comes to love.

I stumbled on a love letter I wrote on my blog some years back (2013) and I realised that I still feel as strongly towards God as I did back then…I can comfortably say that I am still in love with God:

Dear Love,

I was going to be all artistic and start with the colour of the rainbow reflecting the different shades that could come out of the sun or the rains with its different intensity expression the depth and strength of your love, I was even thinking as far as the countries with exciting weather change (Summer, Spring, Autumn or even Winter) describing the various degrees of your love…was thinking so much, how I can express my love for you- sounding like those really poetic people, or great artists or even musicians. I realised they must have experienced you in different ways and expressed their love in a way unique to them yet acceptable to all; so this is me, in my basic imagination, telling you how much I love you.

I really don’t know how other people wake up, but I love how you wake me up, there are days when I wake up in an instant (like a jolt of black coffee), there are other times I wake up or more like I ease into waking up- like savoring the aroma of a cooking meal), in all there’s that uniqueness that warms my heart. I love you for being there for me even before I ever imagined that I needed you, and just like Eric McDaniel, J. Hairston and Minon Bolton, I am saying- I AM GRATEFUL.

I have often wondered how I can accurately describe how much I know you love me, I end up with a headache’s shadow, so I am content with loving you and knowing how to express it. Expressing my love for you and gratitude is like singing unsung melodies, better pouring out my heart by speaking in tongues, you definitely understand. I was alright with life…you loved, I was broken hearted…you still loved, I was ill and going crazy…you still loved me- desperately, I neglected you, did things I am not entirely proud of- you did not love me less, I was feeling high and Pharisee-like….you still loved me.

I may not have the best of words or the most touching lyrics, or the best artwork expressing how much I love you, I have come to realize that you would accept the love, not because you are desperate, but you love me so much that my feeble attempts in showing how much I love you touches you. Here I am cap-in-hand, saying I love you beyond my imagination can let me for now, I love for every time I err you correct me in your way (in the way that works at the time), I love that you love me too much to give me too much. I love you and I intend to be more expressive. I am desperately in love with you Lord that I am going to attempt to be artistic in my words, but words could be cheap.

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I am going to work at being more expressive; here is my attempt: My love for you is like the sunset over the seas, it’s not orange, it’s not purple, it could be described but I am going to attempt to be artistic in my words, but words could be cheap, I am going to work at being more expressive; here is my attempt: My love for you is like the sunset over the seas, it’s not orange, it’s not purple, it could be described but better-experienced…as beautiful as that is, it comes to naught compared to your love for me. I was taught to look before I leap, but with you I will leap and still not look, my love for you enables me to trust you absolutely, even when it’s against the norm There are times when my love for you brings butterflies to my belly, other times it brings clarity, I love that I am not helpless, love that you let me fall in love with you and not force me to love you even though its within your capacity.

I was taught to look before I leap, but with You I will leap and still not look, my love for you enables me to trust you absolutely, even when it’s against the norm There are times when my love for you brings butterflies to my belly, other times it brings clarity, I love that I am not helpless, love that you let me fall in love with You and not force me to love you even though it’s within your capacity. Concluding this entry, I have come to realise that I cannot express my love for you without talking about your love for me, the truth is; you first love me. I wish I had an artist who can paint what I feel inside, I wish I had a camera that can capture how much I love you, I wish I had a lyricist to describe how much I love you and how much I want to love you, Lord.

The truth is; you know how much I love you because you are all those things I wished I had to express my true feelings; now I am content, knowing that even more than I have admitted to myself, you know my true feelings…that’s one more thing I love about you. With you, I am not in love with the idea of being in love; I know that I am in love with you.

Yours Sincerely

Taemytayo (the one who loves you).

I have tried to express my love for God but I keep running in circles, take a break from your busy or laid back schedule and express your love for your creator; it helps put things in perspective.

Here’s the love letter I wrote to God, “I love you ” could be mere words, what other ways can you use to express your love for and to God?

Remember: He first loved you!

Listen…He Speaks!

This May, 5 years ago, I partook in the assessment centre of the organisation I currently work with. I remember every bit of this assessment centre, not because I got the job, but because of the peculiarity of the event of that day.

I remember when I got the email that I had been shortlisted for the assessment centre, I was excited and afraid. You see, I had applied to a couple of companies, written several recruitment exams, and attended a couple of interviews, but I had been unsuccessful. This time around I was like no more rejection, and this time around I did something different.

Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results– Albert Einstein

This time around, I applied the gift of a best friend Jesus left me when He was ascending to Heaven- The HolySpirit. So when I got the email for the assessment centre, I read the mail to the HolySpirit and asked that He takes control from then…He did that!

He directed me to a long time friend who unknown to me was working in the recruitment company, she also loves fashion, she gave me dressing directions. I remember she said, dress the part. I wore a skirt suit with a neck scarf…Hahaha

The HolySpirit directed me to the right group, where I was the group lead, when it was time for the one-on-one interview, the first thing the interviewer said was- I love your look, see me beaming (I’m like HolySpirit, I see you there).

I was asked a particular question, I gave a strange explanation to the scenario painted; I still don’t know where the Solomon kind of answer came (the kind of wisdom King Solomon used to judge who the real mother of the child in the bible was), He gave me the confidence to defend my strange answer, even the interviewer smiled and said that’s different. When I got out, I told my other group members, they had the awkward silence like that’s not the expected answer. Looking back, I remember my mum exclaiming that I had answered it wrongly…indeed He uses the foolish things of this world to confound the wise

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty- 1Corinthians 1:27

When it came to the individual Powerpoint presentation, the examiners were answering the questions for me, helping me out…who does that? That’s how I aced the assessment and got the job!

All through the process, I remember the HolySpirit will tell me- say this, gesticulate like this, look at this person…every seeming unthoughtful action was carefully orchestrated by God!

Pursue a relationship with the HolySpirit, He is as real as the skin on your bones, He speaks, learn to hear Him, don’t take His leading as a fleeting thought, the repercussions are mostly painful. I have had times where I wished I listened and didn’t argue with the HolySpirit. Remember, His ways are higher than ur ways and thoughts higher than our thoughts.

the christian makeupAs humans we have instincts or intuitions that guide our move, as Christians- joint heirs with Jesus Christ, your spirit intertwines with the HolySpirit and your “instincts” gets an Omniscient and Omnipresent boost; it’s always there, you can choose to use it or not…the choice is yours!

I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse; therefore, you shall choose life in order that you may live, you and your descendants- Deuteronomy 30:19